The other week when I was all gung-ho about my plan to step out of my comfort zone in 2015 I really envisioned that as being a physical challenge. As in, stepping out of my comfort zone through physical activity and trying new things in the fitness world. And then I was derailed by a teeny tiny little blood clot that caused massive amounts of pain and made me walk with an odd limp and a cane.
And I’m going to be honest with you here. 1) I was pissed about the blood clot for obvious reasons, but also for really selfish reasons. First, I was afraid they were going to tell me I couldn’t get on a plane that week but fortunately I was cleared. Second, I had plans to exercise extra hard and eat extra light to feel more confident and less bloated for the photoshoot Saturday. And when that was obviously not going to happen I, third, was pissed that I probably ended up gaining weight since it took all my energy to just walk from the couch to the bathroom.
Once I got over being pissed and realized, hey, I’m alive and doing fine, I started to get annoyed that my comfort-zone-blasting-plans were already ruined and January isn’t even over yet. That’s when I had to slap myself again and realize that comfort-zone issues aren’t limited to exercise. So everyday I’ve been trying to do one simple thing that is out of the usual for me. It doesn’t necessarily make me uncomfortable, but it’s something I don’t normally do and would like to do more often.
Monday was my first day of my new work schedule where I don’t work Mondays and work half a day Tuesday. I had big plans for Monday but they were all derailed by discovering what it is like to suddenly go off birth control and experiencing the lovely parts of womanhood on a blood thinner. I had to let go of all my go-get-em plans, especially wanting to look put together for Ken and my first class. And that actually does make me extremely uncomfortable. I could have let it ruin my entire week, since most of my plans involved getting ready for the week, but I didn’t. I emailed people I have obligations to, explained the situation, and asked for leniency. And guess what? They were all more than happy to excuse me.
Tuesday I woke up at 6:30. Yes, I went potty then crawled back into bed until 7:15, but I was awake that whole time. I am constantly trying to get up earlier because I would really love to sit in the shower for a few minutes before getting out. I set my alarm everyday after for 6:30 but I didn’t get up. Lol, I’m going to keep trying!
Wednesday (and really everyday this week except Monday) I made good food choices. I have to take the blood thinner every 12 hours with food. I could easily shove some junky food in my mouth with the meds, but instead I have been reaching for fruit, nuts, nut butter, or cheese. I am a baked goods fiend so this is out of my comfort zone because baked goods give me comfort. Now I am finding comfort in the healthier decisions because nothing will scare you to eat healthier than a health scare!
Thursday I bought my own health insurance plan through healthcare.gov. The easier choice would have been to do COBRA through work but at $300/month that wasn’t sitting pretty with me. My government healthcare isn’t much cheaper but I appealed their decision to deny me a tax credit and I’m crossing my fingers I’ll receive more aid.
Friday I told you about how getting your cycle on a blood thinner isn’t fun. It’s still not fun.
This weekend I am planning on being nonstop with plans, something that causes me a lot of anxiety. And it’s not things I can really cancel. I’m just going to take it hour by hour.
PS this weekend I will be working at my Dad’s booth at the Philadelphia Home Show at the Convention Center. Come say hi!
Have you done anything out of the usual for you? Do you get uncomfortable when your plans are derailed?